[No. 76] No title

No note.

and no content, well ...[1],

and no content, well ...[2],

and no content, well ...[3],

and not even finished[1],

and not even finished[2],

and not even finished[3],

and let them have NOTHING to hold on to[1],

and let them have NOTHING to hold on to[2],

and let them have NOTHING to hold on to[3],

and let them not be entertained[1],

and let them not be entertained[2],

and let them not be entertained[3],

and let them wonder about the MEANING of it as we spin a-ROUND(???)[1],

and let them wonder about the MEANING of it as we spin a-ROUND(???)[2],

and let them wonder about the MEANING of it as we spin a-ROUND(???)[3],

and let them ache for something[1],

and let them ache for something[2],

and let them ache for something[3],

and just watch them now: PATHETIC(!!!)[1],

and just watch them now: PATHETIC(!!!)[2],

and just watch them now: PATHETIC(!!!)[3],

and blah, blah, blah[1],

and blah, blah, blah[2],

and blah, blah, blah[3],

and ... oh, I can't be bothered[1],

and ... oh, I can't be bothered[2],

and ... oh, I can't be bothered[3],

and ... yeah, it's a GAS(!)[1],

and ... yeah, it's a GAS(!)[2],

and ... yeah, it's a GAS(!)[3],

and ...[1],

and ...[2],

and ...[3],

and ... well[1],

and ... well[2],

and ... well[3],

and ... er[1],

and ... er[2],

and ... er[3],

and: I sort of feel sorry for them[1],

and: I sort of feel sorry for them[2],

and: I sort of feel sorry for them[3],

and: what can you do with such people?[1],

and: what can you do with such people?[2],

and: what can you do with such people?[3],

and: at least we KNOW what's going on[1],

and: at least we KNOW what's going on[2],

and: at least we KNOW what's going on[3],

and: and: and[1],

and: and: and[2],

and: and: and[3],

and ... and ... and ...[1],

and ... and ... and ...[2],

and ... and ... and ...[3],

and ... no content, well ...[1],

and ... no content, well ...[2],

and ... no content, well ...[3],

and ... let them have NOTHING to hold on to[1],

and ... let them have NOTHING to hold on to[2],

and ... let them have NOTHING to hold on to[3],

and ... let them not be entertained[1],

and ... let them not be entertained[2],

and ... let them not be entertained[3],

and ... I ...[1],

and ... I ...[2],

and ... I ...[3],

and ... YOU(!)[1],

and ... YOU(!)[2],

and ... YOU(!)[3],

and I wonder, myself[1],

and I wonder, myself[2],

and I wonder, myself[3],

and we've got the THREE to look forward to![1],

and we've got the THREE to look forward to![2],

and we've got the THREE to look forward to![3],

and let's get BEYOND it[1],

and let's get BEYOND it[2],

and let's get BEYOND it[3],

and

Well, yes, a note. / You've got to arrange this shit yourself. You should know how it goes by now. I've done most of the work for you. Bear in mind, there's only one paragraph here. You can copy and paste for the other two. I mean, in your mind. Just go a-ROUND and a-ROUND.

Sutesh Sharma will get the money

Why is everyone wetting their pants? Sutesh has got $200 million. He'll get the whole $500 million, no problem. I blame Toby, myself. That git is still refusing to change his name. What's the deal with this guy? Doesn't he understand that it's only business? He needs a name like "Richard" or "David" or "Michael". You know, something mature and adult. You can't go around calling yourself "Toby", not if you want to make it in the hedge fund business. No wonder investors don't want to put their money up.

Let's remember, Portman Square Capital was a hedge fund that didn't even exist. / Some people say Mr Sharma is a nutcase. I like to think of him as a visionary. He pulled Portman out of thin air! Now, there's a real danger it may go back into thin air. We can't have this. We've got to support our hedgies in the present climate. We've got to support our visionaries. / Or let's call it a day, yeah? I mean, do you want to dismantle civilization and go back to living in caves? Because that's what our socialistic enemies want. We must fight! Never give in. Never, never, never!

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I've been listening to my Gilly Marie demo recording. It's a bit rough around the edges, not perfect, maybe a couple of guitar mistakes, but I'm keeping it. The recording has vitality. Quite often a perfect recording can seem lifeless.

I'm looking forward to next year. / Optimism is rare for me. However, I have something to be optimistic about. Even with the country falling apart. Obviously, individuals have got to look after themselves. If you're in hell, you can always make your small part of hell bearable.

[No. 75] La la la

Dig it.

And YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[1], and, well ... la la la ...[1], and YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[2], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[1], and, well ... la la la ...[2], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[1], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[2], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[1], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[2], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[1], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[2], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[1], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[2], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[1], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[2], and, yeah ... la la la ...[1], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[2], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[1], and, yeah ... la la la ...[2], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[1], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[2], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[1], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[2], and YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[3], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[2], and, well ... la la la ...[3], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[3], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[3], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[3], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[3], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[3], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[3], and, yeah ... la la la ...[3], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[3], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[3], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[3], and

And YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[1], and, well ... la la la ...[1], and YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[2], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[1], and, well ... la la la ...[2], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[1], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[2], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[1], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[2], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[1], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[2], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[1], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[2], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[1], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[2], and, yeah ... la la la ...[1], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[2], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[1], and, yeah ... la la la ...[2], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[1], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[2], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[1], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[2], and YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[3], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[2], and, well ... la la la ...[3], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[3], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[3], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[3], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[3], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[3], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[3], and, yeah ... la la la ...[3], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[3], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[3], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[3], and

And YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[1], and, well ... la la la ...[1], and YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[2], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[1], and, well ... la la la ...[2], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[1], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[2], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[1], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[2], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[1], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[2], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[1], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[2], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[1], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[2], and, yeah ... la la la ...[1], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[2], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[1], and, yeah ... la la la ...[2], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[1], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[2], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[1], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[2], and YES, yes, YES!, oh, la la la, HA!, la la la, YES!, it's enough, my BABY, and why would you want ANYTHING else any more?[3], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[2], and, well ... la la la ...[3], and AH!, la la la, and this is the WAY ... I do business a-ROUND here TODAY in this MOMENT[3], and, my FRIEND, all the other WORDS you may as well put out of your terrible mind, and I want you to FOCUS on: la la la(!)[3], and we're all idiots here - if we want to be[3], and it's SAD when a creature like YOU can't let go of the seriousness that fucks you like a ******[3], and so, COME(!) on: la la la, la la la, LA LA LA(!!!)[3], and life is too short to go looking for news that's just gonna make you feel BAD about EVERYTHING[3], and, yeah ... la la la ...[3], and don't get SQUARE before you've had a chance to be a-ROUND as a child of CHAOS[3], and my CHILDREN, la la la, we are crazy FAMILY like something out of a nightmare[3], and I'm watching YOU, la la la ... and I'm ordering you NOW to let go(!)[3], and

No one told me Bob Doll was retiring

I mean - 'But he's not retiring, Mikey! He's staying -' Yes, yes, I know he isn't retiring. However, he was going to retire, and no one - not one wretched financial soul - had the decency to tell me. 'Oh. Oh dear. Is it important?' Of course it is! I need to know what's happening, Voice. 'You do? Why?' Because I'm the world's foremost financial shaman! I'm supposed to be in tune with the whole goddamn cosmos! And that includes all the exciting financial news. 'Are you serious, man?' Well, not completely. / It would have been nice though. Someone could have sent me an email. One of my loyal readers, maybe. Bob himself could have got on the phone to me, to let me know. / 'So, he's staying at BlackRock then?' You're living in the past, Voice! Wake up! He's left BlackRock. He's going to be working at Nuveen Asset Management now as chief equity strategist and senior portfolio manager - if you can believe that. 'Okay. Well, no one told me, Mikey.' This is what I'm saying, man. No one tells us anything. 'It's jealousy.' I know. I'm not stupid. / Slags, the lot of them.

Who is this Mathew Martoma?

Well, according to characters who know, he's this former SAC Capital Advisors hedge fund guy who has been charged (and bailed) with a $276 million insider trading bit of nonsense. I'll be honest with you: I don't follow the news much these days. I'm bored with it. I mean, it's the same shit all the time, ain't it? There's always going to be hedge funds opening and closing, and there's always going to be people ripping other people off, and there's always going to be characters writing about it like it means something. Oh, it means nothing. Just last night I was staring at the moon. (Through the clouds and all.) I wasn't thinking of Mathew Martoma. Man, last night, I hadn't even heard of Mat. But then I wake up this morning and I surf the net, and this is what happens - a post like this. What the hell is it all about?

If you're a regular reader, you know what my plans are. If I can get a publishing deal for my songs, I'll reduce my posting here to just thirty or forty times a year: and it will be all conceptual stuff beyond finance, a-ROUND and a-ROUND. Then I'll be happy. And I'll be free. I'll be clean. I'll be aloof. I'll be a-WAY with the fairies - permanently. / It's my destiny. (I can feel it.) I'm going to make it happen. / I've been covering the financial crisis for five years. That Jamil Baz reckons we've got another twenty years of it to look forward to! Ha! Only a nutter would believe I'd write about it for twenty years. / So, conceptual literature is the future. It's got to be - or else I'll go insane. 'And write about banks and hedge funds for another twenty years, Mikey.' Yeah, Voice. A fate worse than death.

Maybe I need a holiday, a proper one. / I only went to Cornwall for five days this year. / I still think about my holiday. / You know, I was in a dream world for those five days, just walking around in a daze. It was so hot, and I had ice cream and cider and pasties, and the sea was liquid silver, and the sky was salmon pink. / I had moments you want to hold on to forever. / Outside, the sky is grey. It's cold now.

All this, it ain't healthy. The few finance writers I've met have been like something from the pages of a Dennis Wheatley novel. / Christ. Why did I get involved?

Grant Peterkin is leaving Ignis Asset Management

Just like Jonathan Polin! / He couldn't take it no more, man. 'Oh, the burning love?' I don't know, Voice, but he's going away, that's for sure. A real shame. We'll miss him. 'Where's he going, Mikey?' Abroad. 'Oh Christ! Into exile! A bit like Lord Byron, yeah?' Well, exactly like Lord Byron. 'Greece? Will he be fighting the Germans?' No. All I can tell you is that Grant is tired of messing around with the Ignis Absolute Return Government Bond fund. 'Well, er ... Byron, er ... is he going a-roving, then?' I don't know, man. How should I know? He's probably tired of that too. 'Byron wasn't a fund manager, you know.' I know he wasn't! Listen, forget it, Voice. / See if you can dig this. By the light of the moon last night I re-recorded Gilly Marie for the fiftieth time - or something like that. (I've recorded it a lot.) I thought the song was no good, but my guitar playing has improved. 'Great!' And my singing has improved. 'Wonderful!' And now the song sounds cool. So I have two complete songs, plus two songs nearly finished. 'Yippee!' I'll definitely be ready after Christmas. 'Brilliant! What about Mr Peterkin?' He can join my band. Drummer, maybe. Or bassist. I'll have to speak to him about it. 'But he's going abroad, Mikey!' No, no, no. I'll talk him out of it. 'Good. Let's keep him in the country.' Yes, where we know what he's getting up to.

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I've got a nice egg sandwich for lunch. / After lunch I'll be on the guitar. I want to get things finished. Just one of those two songs will be enough. I know which one. I need eighteen lines of lyric for it.

I'm listening to Rumours by Fleetwood Mac. Forty million copies sold! You can't argue with that. 'Players only love you when they're playing, Mikey.' You're not wrong, Voice.

[No. 74] Words, words, words

Dynamite for the clueless.

And how do you get squares a-ROUND?[1], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[1], and how do you get squares a-ROUND?[2], and my word is my BOMB[1], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[2], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[1], and my word is my BOMB[2], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[1], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[2], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[1], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[2], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[1], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[2], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[1], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[2], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[1], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[2], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[1], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[2], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[1], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[2], and how do you get squares a-ROUND?[3], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[2], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[3], and my word is my BOMB[3], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[3], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[3], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[3], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[3], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[3], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[3], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[3], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[3], and

And how do you get squares a-ROUND?[1], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[1], and how do you get squares a-ROUND?[2], and my word is my BOMB[1], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[2], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[1], and my word is my BOMB[2], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[1], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[2], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[1], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[2], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[1], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[2], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[1], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[2], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[1], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[2], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[1], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[2], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[1], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[2], and how do you get squares a-ROUND?[3], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[2], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[3], and my word is my BOMB[3], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[3], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[3], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[3], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[3], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[3], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[3], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[3], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[3], and

And how do you get squares a-ROUND?[1], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[1], and how do you get squares a-ROUND?[2], and my word is my BOMB[1], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[2], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[1], and my word is my BOMB[2], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[1], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[2], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[1], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[2], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[1], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[2], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[1], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[2], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[1], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[2], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[1], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[2], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[1], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[2], and how do you get squares a-ROUND?[3], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[2], and I'll put the fucking words in their HEAD(s), and I'll put the fucking words in their BONES, ha(!), oh, ah(!), and there will be no escape, for my "friend"(s), and I'll be doing them a favour[3], and my word is my BOMB[3], and WORD(s) - ?: they're in my HEAD, sweet JESUS, and: they're in my BONES, and: I have to live like this, and so why should they get away with being free of KILLER words, all empty?[3], and I'll take them beyond the THREE - and they'll get the voices, and they'll get the PAIN(!)[3], and I'll be slashing a-ROUND here, with my wild consciousness like a RAZOR[3], and I'll take them beyond the SQUARE literature they're into, and they'll get my SHIT vibrating like ... a vibrator - in their souls(?!)[3], and I'll be swimming a-ROUND here with my wicked heart, like a SHARK[3], and what can you do with smug SOULLESS(!!!) zombies?[3], and I know but I can't say, and I fantasize but I'm still too civilized to act[3], and I'm OUTSIDE their wretched reality, and, baby, I'm where the ACTION is[3], and

OMG Capital is calling it quits

I'm listening to the greatest Christmas album ever recorded. I'm talking about Phil Spector's Christmas album. Someone really should bust him out of jail so we can get some decent music in the charts again.

Right, down to boring financial business. Oh My God Capital is calling it quits. Yes, another hedge fund bites the dust. Hardly anyone can make money in this environment. Crispin Odey can, of course. But he's the only one, well, one of the few.

What is the secret of Crispin's success? 'It's got to be those absurd pictures on his website, Mikey.' I don't know, Voice. There's got to be more to it than that. 'I swear there's something mystical going on, man.' What, with the pictures? Are you saying they attract money? 'Maybe. Have you spoken to Crispin about them?' No, I haven't. But I guess I'll have to now. I'm intrigued, Voice. 'Aren't we all, Mikey? We're all intrigued.'

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I reckon it will be No. 82 at Christmas, the big one I'm planning. / Yes. [No. 82] Outlaw. That sounds good. / It will have three sections, each section comprising of three paragraphs. All spinning a-ROUND! I can't wait! / About fifty hours work.

I think my guitar playing is improving because I play every day now. Even if it's only for half an hour. It stops your fingers going soft.

I'll be ready with the music after Christmas. Probably mid to late January. A year behind schedule, but so what? Quality takes time. / I'm feeling reasonably optimistic about next year. I'll have my three (great) songs. I'll have over eighty conceptuals. Who could ask for more? Well, I could, obviously. I'm never satisfied, and I'm going to need more than three songs once I really get going.

Cheese rolls for lunch.

No. 74 later.

Laters ...

[No. 73] Howling

Animal, man.

And sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[1], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![1], and sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[2], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[1], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![2], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[1], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[2], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[1], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[2], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[1], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[2], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[1], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[2], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[1], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[2], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[1], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[2], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[1], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[2], and I'm a howling man[1], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[2], and sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[3], and I'm a howling man[2], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![3], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[3], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[3], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[3], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[3], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[3], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[3], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[3], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[3], and I'm a howling man[3], and

And sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[1], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![1], and sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[2], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[1], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![2], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[1], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[2], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[1], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[2], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[1], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[2], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[1], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[2], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[1], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[2], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[1], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[2], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[1], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[2], and I'm a howling man[1], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[2], and sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[3], and I'm a howling man[2], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![3], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[3], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[3], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[3], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[3], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[3], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[3], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[3], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[3], and I'm a howling man[3], and

And sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[1], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![1], and sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[2], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[1], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![2], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[1], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[2], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[1], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[2], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[1], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[2], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[1], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[2], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[1], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[2], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[1], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[2], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[1], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[2], and I'm a howling man[1], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[2], and sometimes, hu-MAN, well, I'm just in the mood for HOWLING, yeah, and there's nothing anyone can do[3], and I'm a howling man[2], and you can't hear me out there if you ain't a-ROUND, and you better get in here, quick![3], and I'm ANIMAL wild with all the pain of ANIMAL, oh, more animal than you, man, HUMAN, (eh?) ... and that's what the phoneys and the creeps will never understand[3], and a real HUMAN animal to boot, eh?[3], and look(!): at this flesh, this hair, these teeth, and I'll be coming for you in the NIGHT unless you get here[3], and I'm HOWLING, HOWLING, HOWLING - (!!!)[3], and YOU(!) can get this in NIGHTMARES if you want it - (?), and I have to live with it, fully awake[3], and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN, and I'm a howling hu-MAN[3], and a-ROUND, scratching, biting, the blood, the tears, and let me forget I was ever civilized[3], and so SAVAGE, let me forget ... YOU-man, YOU-child, YOU-thing, ah, this is the BEAST: oh, I ever knew words, and The WORD(s), and words, yeah, hanging a-ROUND, just evil, all ... SICK in my head[3], and I'm a howling man[3], and

Odey Asset Management's UK Absolute Return fund is doing all right

See if you can dig this: I launched Odey Asset Management in 1991 with some crazy ass "owners" approach and have worked hard to build an investment team and a client base who share these beliefs. Today we manage roughly $6.6 billion for many of the world's leading investors and have an exceptional performance record across our conventional and hedge fund portfolios. 'Eh?' No, that's not me. That's Crispin, man. 'Thank Christ, Mikey! I thought you had lost your freakin' mind.' No, Voice. I'm quite sane.

But what about this UK Absolute Return fund?! 28 per cent return this year! I bet Crispin won't be giving any money back to any goddamn investors. 'He'd be a fool to.' And Crispin ain't no fool.

By the way, dear reader(s), if you want a good laugh, maybe you should pop over to the Odey website. (I ain't got the link. Laziness, I'm afraid.) What are those pictures all about? Flying away in a beautiful balloon? The desert? Icebergs? Mountains? 'It's fucking crazy, Mikey.' Well, that's just your opinion, Voice. I'm sure Crispin had a good reason to put them on the site.

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I can't stop playing Neil Young's new song, Ramada Inn. It's up there with Cortez The Killer and Like A Hurricane. Amazing! The lyrics are pretty simple, and would probably look silly written down, but they're brilliant with the music, really emotional. When I hear good shit like this, it makes me think I want to be more than just a writer for other artists. Neil Young is sixty-seven. I'm forty-three. My singing is much better than it was in the old days. My guitar playing is improving. I want to play the piano again. I want to write songs like this, man.

Same stuff for lunch. Cheese rolls and that. Don't worry about it. Then a conceptual, No. 73. / I'm planning a big one for the Christmas period. I'm going to put a lot of work into it. Maybe as much as fifty hours. I want to write a masterpiece. / No. 36 (Firestorm) is the best one so far. / I can't believe there are idiots around (not a-ROUND) still wittering on about novels. But what can you do? I refuse to live in the past. I'll keep on moving into the future.

Libra Advisors is returning outside capital!!!

Oh my God! Not another hedge fund giving money back to investors. Has the world gone mad? Hedgies are sick of money - ?!

Well, not quite. They're sick of regulation, of interference. I can't blame them. Where's the fun in the business now? / 'Mikey, it must be all this Ken Dodd financial legislation, yeah?' Ken Dodd, Voice? Maybe. I know the poor man had trouble with his taxes. I'm not sure he's mixed up in this though. 'Do some research. I think you'll find he is.' You do some research. You're my intern. 'Intern? No, I don't get paid for that, man.' Well, no, you don't, man. That's why you're my intern. 'Eh?' Forget it, Voice. 'Don't worry, I will.' / You can't get the staff, dear reader(s). / 'Anyway, I'm setting up your paywall later, Mikey. And that's going to cost you. Serious cash, you know. I mean, for my technical expertise.' Paywall?! Piss off, you idiot! 'Your freeloading readers have had it all their own way for far too long. But there's a new sheriff in town. Me! They'll have to register. I want to know who they are, and what they're doing. You can call me Big Voice.' Oi! This is my blog. So you can do one, Little Moron. (Ignore him, reader[s?].) I'm a natural-born blogger, and a man of the people. This blog needs to be free. (Freedom!) I need to be free. My people need to be free. 'Oh, just joking, son. You're so easy to wind up.' Voice. 'Yeah?' Go away, please.

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Has he gone?

Yeah, he's gone. Fucking paywall. As if. I can't stand the bloody things. And hell will freeze over before I sign in to any fucking blog myself. / I can't expect you ... The truth is, I've just got too much love for my readers - YOU(s)! / Respect and love, you understand? / You're more to me than a bit of shitty data. / Oh, YOU! / (Individual reader.) You're a human being. You're a spirit, and a part of the universal spirit of the cosmos. / Can you dig it? Are you on my wavelength?

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Napoleon said you should never interrupt your enemy while he's making a mistake. (Well, Rod Steiger, in the film.) But he was a military genius. I'm not. So ...

I'm listening to Neil Young's new album, Psychedelic Pill. / I reckon Ramada Inn is a great song, one of his best ever.

So, so, so ... I'm working in the night again. I like the night. I can think clearly in the night.

I feel like I've been listening to the same song for twenty minutes. 'You have! Driftin' Back.' Shut it! / Only another seven minutes to go.

Good night, everyone!

This ain't the time for finance

It's the early hours of Sunday morning, man. What do you want from me, reader? What do you want from anyone at this hour(s)? Go to bed. If you're in bed, go to sleep. And if you're asleep, dream, baby, dream. Nice dreams though.

It's either this or nightmares for me. The last couple of nights I haven't been sleeping right. Maybe it's the weather. They reckon it's going to be a very cold winter.

I've got the TV on. Some prat is playing the flute in a rock band, for everyone's entertainment, no doubt. A circus, apparently. Organized by The Rolling Stones. There's a lot of ego on display. That's the sort of thing you have to watch out for. It can kill creativity, unless you're like Picasso or Beethoven.

Keith Moon is all right. He played the drums like an animal in a puppet show. / There's a pub where The Who used to play twice a week. (My uncle saw them!) And it's empty most days. No pictures of the famous local band on the walls. Christ! Where's the business sense of these people?

And in breaking news ... Oh, there ain't no news. I thought you knew that. / Don't tell me you're at work? Ha! One of the Goldman lot, are you? Why do you do it to yourself? How much money do you need, son? (Or: girl.) You're working yourself to death. Life is very short. None of us are getting any younger.

I'm making slow, slow, slow progress with my new song. The fragments of lyric suggest it's going to be a great love song rather than ... the other idea I had, U2/Cash thing/style. That's fine. I'm cool with it. / Excuse me, what the fuck is Yoko screeching about?! / Sorry, reader. Yeah, I'm cool with a great love song. Bacharach or The Righteous Brothers. Not a problem for me. / Now Jagger's freaking out! / Let's get this off. Yeah. Get some Eno on.

No, hang on. Danny Dyer is on the other side. The guy is comedy gold. Not sure he realizes it ...

[No. 72] So many paths

I'm glad we're here.

And here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[1], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[1], and here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[2], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[1], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[2], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[1], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[2], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[1], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[2], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[1], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[2], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[1], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[2], and I can't control my life, myself[1], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[2], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[1], and I can't control my life, myself[2], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[1], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[2], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[1], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[2], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[1], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[2], and I left the building a long time ago[1], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[2], and here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[3], and I left the building a long time ago[2], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[3], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[3], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[3], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[3], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[3], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[3], and I can't control my life, myself[3], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[3], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[3], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[3], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[3], and I left the building a long time ago[3], and

And here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[1], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[1], and here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[2], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[1], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[2], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[1], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[2], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[1], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[2], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[1], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[2], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[1], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[2], and I can't control my life, myself[1], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[2], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[1], and I can't control my life, myself[2], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[1], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[2], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[1], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[2], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[1], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[2], and I left the building a long time ago[1], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[2], and here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[3], and I left the building a long time ago[2], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[3], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[3], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[3], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[3], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[3], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[3], and I can't control my life, myself[3], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[3], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[3], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[3], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[3], and I left the building a long time ago[3], and

And here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[1], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[1], and here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[2], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[1], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[2], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[1], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[2], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[1], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[2], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[1], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[2], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[1], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[2], and I can't control my life, myself[1], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[2], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[1], and I can't control my life, myself[2], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[1], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[2], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[1], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[2], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[1], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[2], and I left the building a long time ago[1], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[2], and here we are a-ROUND here AGAIN, and we can't get off, and we don't want to get off, and this is our DESTINY(?!)[3], and I left the building a long time ago[2], and it's not a PATH we're on that we've chosen - let me be your teddy bear - and it's not a path at all: and it's out there in the world where the paths are, eh?[3], and I apologize for the TEDDY BEAR, and I'm listening to ELVIS(!), and it gets in EVERYWHERE, the music[3], and oh YEAH(!) ever since the world began I've been trying to find the right path[3], and I ain't got no choices here, thank GOD(!)[3], and one NIGHT with you, or: one DAY with you - a nightmare come true, FOREVER(!), and this is it[3], and I can't control every CONCEPTUAL, and I don't have the strength of God, a god ...[3], and I can't control my life, myself[3], and here I'm stuck on this for my own safety, and "they" can shake apples off the apple tree - why should I care?[3], and my lovely ANGEL, oh, she might be the DEVIL in disguise, and I'm just a hunk of burning LOVE(!)[3], and YOU(!) can bring the curtain down - if you're strong enough, and if you fancy the responsibility[3], and I'll bring the curtain down on this ... CHAOS, I'll try[3], and I left the building a long time ago[3], and