Monday 8 June 2020

[No. 808] This is the only control I have

Ha!

And, well ...[1], and, uh ... what control, really?[1], and, well ...[2], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[1], and, uh ... what control, really?[2], and ... does it matter?[1], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[2], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[1], and ... does it matter?[2], and ... help![1], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[2], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[1], and ... help![2], and there is so much mystery, yes[1], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[2], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and break them, and, uh ... hope for the best[1], and there is so much mystery, yes[2], and feelings ... ? Christ[1], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and bre ak them, and, uh ... hope for the best[2], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[1], and feelings ... ? Christ[2], and visions come[1], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[2], and I've been chosen, obviously[1], and visions come[2], and I can edit, yes[1], and I've been chosen, obviously[2], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[1], and I can edit, yes[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![1], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[2], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![2], and, uh ... uh[1], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[2], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![1], and, uh ... uh[2], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[1], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![2], and ... right now?[1], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[2], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[1], and ... right now?[2], and if I had control ... I could stop[1], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[2], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[1], and if I had control ... I could stop[2], and a-ROUND ... crawling[1], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[2], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[1], and a-ROUND ... crawling[2], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![1], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[2], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[1], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![2], and never mind[1], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[2], and, well ...[3], and never mind[2], and, uh ... what control, really?[3], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[3], and ... does it matter?[3], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[3], and ... help![3], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[3], and there is so much mystery, yes[3], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and b  r  e  a  k them, and, uh ... hope for the best[3], and feelings ... ? Christ[3], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[3], and visions come[3], and I've been chosen, obviously[3], and I can edit, yes[3], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![3], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[3], and, uh ... uh[3], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![3], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[3], and ... right now?[3], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[3], and if I had control ... I could stop[3], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[3], and a-ROUND ... crawling[3], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[3], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![3], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[3], and never mind[3], and

And, well ...[1], and, uh ... what control, really?[1], and, well ...[2], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[1], and, uh ... what control, really?[2], and ... does it matter?[1], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[2], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[1], and ... does it matter?[2], and ... help![1], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[2], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[1], and ... help![2], and there is so much mystery, yes[1], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[2], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and break them, and, uh ... hope for the best[1], and there is so much mystery, yes[2], and feelings ... ? Christ[1], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and bre ak them, and, uh ... hope for the best[2], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[1], and feelings ... ? Christ[2], and visions come[1], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[2], and I've been chosen, obviously[1], and visions come[2], and I can edit, yes[1], and I've been chosen, obviously[2], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[1], and I can edit, yes[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![1], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[2], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![2], and, uh ... uh[1], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[2], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![1], and, uh ... uh[2], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[1], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![2], and ... right now?[1], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[2], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[1], and ... right now?[2], and if I had control ... I could stop[1], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[2], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[1], and if I had control ... I could stop[2], and a-ROUND ... crawling[1], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[2], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[1], and a-ROUND ... crawling[2], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![1], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[2], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[1], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![2], and never mind[1], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[2], and, well ...[3], and never mind[2], and, uh ... what control, really?[3], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[3], and ... does it matter?[3], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[3], and ... help![3], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[3], and there is so much mystery, yes[3], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and b  r  e  a  k them, and, uh ... hope for the best[3], and feelings ... ? Christ[3], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[3], and visions come[3], and I've been chosen, obviously[3], and I can edit, yes[3], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![3], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[3], and, uh ... uh[3], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![3], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[3], and ... right now?[3], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[3], and if I had control ... I could stop[3], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[3], and a-ROUND ... crawling[3], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[3], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![3], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[3], and never mind[3], and

And, well ...[1], and, uh ... what control, really?[1], and, well ...[2], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[1], and, uh ... what control, really?[2], and ... does it matter?[1], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[2], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[1], and ... does it matter?[2], and ... help![1], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[2], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[1], and ... help![2], and there is so much mystery, yes[1], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[2], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and break them, and, uh ... hope for the best[1], and there is so much mystery, yes[2], and feelings ... ? Christ[1], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and bre ak them, and, uh ... hope for the best[2], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[1], and feelings ... ? Christ[2], and visions come[1], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[2], and I've been chosen, obviously[1], and visions come[2], and I can edit, yes[1], and I've been chosen, obviously[2], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[1], and I can edit, yes[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![1], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[2], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![2], and, uh ... uh[1], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[2], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![1], and, uh ... uh[2], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[1], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![2], and ... right now?[1], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[2], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[1], and ... right now?[2], and if I had control ... I could stop[1], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[2], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[1], and if I had control ... I could stop[2], and a-ROUND ... crawling[1], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[2], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[1], and a-ROUND ... crawling[2], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![1], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[2], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[1], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![2], and never mind[1], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[2], and, well ...[3], and never mind[2], and, uh ... what control, really?[3], and words come to me from God knows where ... heaven or hell ... or a living, breathing cosmos[3], and ... does it matter?[3], and I'm as confused as the next mystic[3], and ... help![3], and a-ROUND here ... I try to make sense out of senseless things / and it ain't easy, man, no, no, no[3], and there is so much mystery, yes[3], and, listen! ... you've got to fix the words, tight, and spin them, and b  r  e  a  k them, and, uh ... hope for the best[3], and feelings ... ? Christ[3], and what does it all mean ... ? Ha, ha, ha! Don't ask me, I only work here[3], and visions come[3], and I've been chosen, obviously[3], and I can edit, yes[3], and I know just how Joan of Arc felt ...[3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... with a soul of chaos![3], and I know just how Mozart felt ...[3], and, uh ... uh[3], and those characters ... what characters, eh?![3], and but, but, but ... I'm on my own, with my own insane blessings, and ... I just don't know[3], and ... right now?[3], and in this moment, yes, and any coming moments, uh / and ... how many of the blasted things must I endure?[3], and if I had control ... I could stop[3], and pale light through the window isn't helping ...[3], and a-ROUND ... crawling[3], and the chill in the air isn't helping ...[3], and a-ROUND ... so empty inside![3], and yet, and yet, and yet ... ? Ah, so full of something ... something terrible, a consciousness that won't die[3], and never mind[3], and