Monday 27 April 2020

[No. 798] My soul is in lockdown

I've oppressed myself.

And, yeah, big time - !!![1], and, yeah, yeah[1], and, yeah, big time - !!![2], and, well ... eternal time, actually[1], and, yeah, yeah[2], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[1], and, well ... eternal time, actually[2], and I have ...[1], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[2], and such strength![1], and I have ...[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![1], and such strength![2], and I have ... such control![1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![2], and I hope[1], and I have ... such control![2], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[1], and I hope[2], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[1], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[2], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[1], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[2], and, so ... come on, come on![1], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[2], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[1], and, so ... come on, come on![2], and faster to oblivion ... ?[1], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[2], and my body, it breaks like words, yes ... but only my soul is important[1], and faster to oblivion ... ?[2], and a drop for the ocean[1], and my b ody, it br eaks like w ords, yes ... but only my s oul is import ant[2], and that's what I imagine, yes[1], and a drop for the ocean[2], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[1], and that's what I imagine, yes[2], and maybe it doesn't exist[1], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[2], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[1], and maybe it doesn't exist[2], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[1], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[2], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![1], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[2], and, oh ... a direction, too[1], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![2], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[1], and, oh ... a direction, too[2], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![1], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[2], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[1], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![2], and, but ... words don't stop[1], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[2], and there is always more reality to break[1], and, but ... words don't stop[2], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[1], and there is always more r eality to bre ak[2], and there is no end[1], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[2], and, yeah, big time - !!![3], and there is no end[2], and, yeah, yeah[3], and, well ... eternal time, actually[3], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[3], and I have ...[3], and such strength![3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![3], and I have ... such control![3], and I hope[3], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[3], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[3], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[3], and, so ... come on, come on![3], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[3], and faster to oblivion ... ?[3], and my b  o  d  y, it b  r  e  a  k  s like w  o  r  d  s, yes ... but only my s  o  u  l is i  m  p  o  r  t  a  n  t[3], and a drop for the ocean[3], and that's what I imagine, yes[3], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[3], and maybe it doesn't exist[3], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[3], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[3], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![3], and, oh ... a direction, too[3], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[3], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![3], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[3], and, but ... words don't stop[3], and there is always more r  e  a  l  i  t  y to b  r  e  a  k[3], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[3], and there is no end[3], and

And, yeah, big time - !!![1], and, yeah, yeah[1], and, yeah, big time - !!![2], and, well ... eternal time, actually[1], and, yeah, yeah[2], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[1], and, well ... eternal time, actually[2], and I have ...[1], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[2], and such strength![1], and I have ...[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![1], and such strength![2], and I have ... such control![1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![2], and I hope[1], and I have ... such control![2], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[1], and I hope[2], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[1], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[2], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[1], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[2], and, so ... come on, come on![1], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[2], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[1], and, so ... come on, come on![2], and faster to oblivion ... ?[1], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[2], and my body, it breaks like words, yes ... but only my soul is important[1], and faster to oblivion ... ?[2], and a drop for the ocean[1], and my b ody, it br eaks like w ords, yes ... but only my s oul is import ant[2], and that's what I imagine, yes[1], and a drop for the ocean[2], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[1], and that's what I imagine, yes[2], and maybe it doesn't exist[1], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[2], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[1], and maybe it doesn't exist[2], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[1], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[2], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![1], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[2], and, oh ... a direction, too[1], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![2], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[1], and, oh ... a direction, too[2], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![1], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[2], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[1], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![2], and, but ... words don't stop[1], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[2], and there is always more reality to break[1], and, but ... words don't stop[2], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[1], and there is always more r eality to bre ak[2], and there is no end[1], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[2], and, yeah, big time - !!![3], and there is no end[2], and, yeah, yeah[3], and, well ... eternal time, actually[3], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[3], and I have ...[3], and such strength![3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![3], and I have ... such control![3], and I hope[3], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[3], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[3], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[3], and, so ... come on, come on![3], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[3], and faster to oblivion ... ?[3], and my b  o  d  y, it b  r  e  a  k  s like w  o  r  d  s, yes ... but only my s  o  u  l is i  m  p  o  r  t  a  n  t[3], and a drop for the ocean[3], and that's what I imagine, yes[3], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[3], and maybe it doesn't exist[3], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[3], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[3], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![3], and, oh ... a direction, too[3], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[3], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![3], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[3], and, but ... words don't stop[3], and there is always more r  e  a  l  i  t  y to b  r  e  a  k[3], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[3], and there is no end[3], and

And, yeah, big time - !!![1], and, yeah, yeah[1], and, yeah, big time - !!![2], and, well ... eternal time, actually[1], and, yeah, yeah[2], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[1], and, well ... eternal time, actually[2], and I have ...[1], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[2], and such strength![1], and I have ...[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![1], and such strength![2], and I have ... such control![1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![2], and I hope[1], and I have ... such control![2], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[1], and I hope[2], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[1], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[2], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[1], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[2], and, so ... come on, come on![1], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[2], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[1], and, so ... come on, come on![2], and faster to oblivion ... ?[1], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[2], and my body, it breaks like words, yes ... but only my soul is important[1], and faster to oblivion ... ?[2], and a drop for the ocean[1], and my b ody, it br eaks like w ords, yes ... but only my s oul is import ant[2], and that's what I imagine, yes[1], and a drop for the ocean[2], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[1], and that's what I imagine, yes[2], and maybe it doesn't exist[1], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[2], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[1], and maybe it doesn't exist[2], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[1], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[2], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![1], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[2], and, oh ... a direction, too[1], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![2], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[1], and, oh ... a direction, too[2], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![1], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[2], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[1], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![2], and, but ... words don't stop[1], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[2], and there is always more reality to break[1], and, but ... words don't stop[2], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[1], and there is always more r eality to bre ak[2], and there is no end[1], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[2], and, yeah, big time - !!![3], and there is no end[2], and, yeah, yeah[3], and, well ... eternal time, actually[3], and I'm not saying I like it, oh no / and, but, but, BUT(!) ... it is necessary, you dig?[3], and I have ...[3], and such strength![3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... oh, the cosmos is topping up my consciousness ness - !!![3], and I have ... such control![3], and I hope[3], and my words, words, words ... ? / and I'm trying my best with the words, yes[3], and, uh ... my feelings ... ?[3], and a-ROUND here ... everything is supposed to make non ... sense / and that's the theory, anyway[3], and, so ... come on, come on![3], and a-ROUND here ... just not caring about out there[3], and faster to oblivion ... ?[3], and my b  o  d  y, it b  r  e  a  k  s like w  o  r  d  s, yes ... but only my s  o  u  l is i  m  p  o  r  t  a  n  t[3], and a drop for the ocean[3], and that's what I imagine, yes[3], and, but ... I don't know where the ocean is[3], and maybe it doesn't exist[3], and those two "losers" ... Jesus and Buddha ... could have been billionaires, man, if they had wanted, really wanted[3], and, listen! ... we're only talking about a decision, that's all[3], and, yes, yes, YES - !!![3], and, oh ... a direction, too[3], and it doesn't mean anything, all of it, any wretched thing ... / and, so ... why not spin until you're sick?[3], and, YOU(!) ... do it now![3], and after sickness, soul sickness, comes ... a better grasp on reality[3], and, but ... words don't stop[3], and there is always more r  e  a  l  i  t  y to b  r  e  a  k[3], and if you don't get all this ... well, you're not on my level[3], and there is no end[3], and