Tuesday 10 January 2023

[No. 1,064] Anxiety

It never goes away.

And ... do you know?[1], and here I am[1], and ... do you know?[2], and who's knocking on your door?[1], and here I am[2], and here you are[1], and who's knocking on your door?[2], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[1], and here you are[2], and we are together again[1], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[2], and ... 'Yippee'[1], and we are together again[2], and I wish the world would go away ...[1], and ... 'Yippee'[2], and peace please[1], and I wish the world would go away ...[2], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[1], and peace please[2], and ... 'No one'[1], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[2], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![1], and ... 'No one'[2], and ... with you[1], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![2], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[1], and ... with you[2], and, yeah, yeah[1], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[2], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[1], and, yeah, yeah[2], and hear my words ... you![1], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[2], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[1], and hear my words ... you![2], and ... eh?[1], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[2], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![1], and ... eh?[2], and ... 'I doubt it'[1], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![2], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[1], and ... 'I doubt it'[2], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[1], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[1], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[2], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[2], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[1], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[2], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[1], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[2], and, anyway ... here my words[1], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[2], and who is that ... peering through your window?[1], and, anyway ... here my words[2], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[1], and who is that ... peering through your window?[2], and if you feel ill now ...[1], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[2], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[1], and if you feel ill now ...[2], and I don't blame you[1], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[2], and who is that ... really?[1], and I don't blame you[2], and ... do you know?[3], and who is that ... really?[2], and here I am[3], and who's knocking on your door?[3], and here you are[3], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[3], and we are together again[3], and ... 'Yippee'[3], and I wish the world would go away ...[3], and peace please[3], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[3], and ... 'No one'[3], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![3], and ... with you[3], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[3], and, yeah, yeah[3], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[3], and hear my words ... you![3], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[3], and ... eh?[3], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![3], and ... 'I doubt it'[3], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[3], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[3], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[3], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[3], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[3], and, anyway ... here my words[3], and who is that ... peering through your window?[3], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[3], and if you feel ill now ...[3], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[3], and I don't blame you[3], and who is that ... really?[3], and

And ... do you know?[1], and here I am[1], and ... do you know?[2], and who's knocking on your door?[1], and here I am[2], and here you are[1], and who's knocking on your door?[2], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[1], and here you are[2], and we are together again[1], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[2], and ... 'Yippee'[1], and we are together again[2], and I wish the world would go away ...[1], and ... 'Yippee'[2], and peace please[1], and I wish the world would go away ...[2], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[1], and peace please[2], and ... 'No one'[1], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[2], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![1], and ... 'No one'[2], and ... with you[1], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![2], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[1], and ... with you[2], and, yeah, yeah[1], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[2], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[1], and, yeah, yeah[2], and hear my words ... you![1], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[2], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[1], and hear my words ... you![2], and ... eh?[1], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[2], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![1], and ... eh?[2], and ... 'I doubt it'[1], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![2], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[1], and ... 'I doubt it'[2], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[1], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[1], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[2], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[2], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[1], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[2], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[1], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[2], and, anyway ... here my words[1], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[2], and who is that ... peering through your window?[1], and, anyway ... here my words[2], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[1], and who is that ... peering through your window?[2], and if you feel ill now ...[1], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[2], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[1], and if you feel ill now ...[2], and I don't blame you[1], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[2], and who is that ... really?[1], and I don't blame you[2], and ... do you know?[3], and who is that ... really?[2], and here I am[3], and who's knocking on your door?[3], and here you are[3], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[3], and we are together again[3], and ... 'Yippee'[3], and I wish the world would go away ...[3], and peace please[3], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[3], and ... 'No one'[3], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![3], and ... with you[3], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[3], and, yeah, yeah[3], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[3], and hear my words ... you![3], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[3], and ... eh?[3], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![3], and ... 'I doubt it'[3], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[3], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[3], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[3], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[3], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[3], and, anyway ... here my words[3], and who is that ... peering through your window?[3], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[3], and if you feel ill now ...[3], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[3], and I don't blame you[3], and who is that ... really?[3], and

And ... do you know?[1], and here I am[1], and ... do you know?[2], and who's knocking on your door?[1], and here I am[2], and here you are[1], and who's knocking on your door?[2], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[1], and here you are[2], and we are together again[1], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[2], and ... 'Yippee'[1], and we are together again[2], and I wish the world would go away ...[1], and ... 'Yippee'[2], and peace please[1], and I wish the world would go away ...[2], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[1], and peace please[2], and ... 'No one'[1], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[2], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![1], and ... 'No one'[2], and ... with you[1], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![2], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[1], and ... with you[2], and, yeah, yeah[1], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[2], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[1], and, yeah, yeah[2], and hear my words ... you![1], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[2], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[1], and hear my words ... you![2], and ... eh?[1], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[2], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![1], and ... eh?[2], and ... 'I doubt it'[1], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![2], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[1], and ... 'I doubt it'[2], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[1], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[2], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[1], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[2], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[1], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[2], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[1], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[2], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[1], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[2], and, anyway ... here my words[1], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[2], and who is that ... peering through your window?[1], and, anyway ... here my words[2], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[1], and who is that ... peering through your window?[2], and if you feel ill now ...[1], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[2], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[1], and if you feel ill now ...[2], and I don't blame you[1], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[2], and who is that ... really?[1], and I don't blame you[2], and ... do you know?[3], and who is that ... really?[2], and here I am[3], and who's knocking on your door?[3], and here you are[3], and who's whispering in your ear ... while you're sleeping ... or even when you're awake?[3], and we are together again[3], and ... 'Yippee'[3], and I wish the world would go away ...[3], and peace please[3], and, who the fuck is that?! ... uh, uh ... who's moving about ... making a noise, when we want silence?[3], and ... 'No one'[3], and I still got words, words, words ... to communicate with, ha![3], and ... with you[3], and ... 'With the whole stinking world, Mikey ... in theory'[3], and, yeah, yeah[3], and I suffer, yes ... but not in silence[3], and hear my words ... you![3], and, listen ... no more world, no more problem ... no reality to deal with ... is that something that would interest you???[3], and ... eh?[3], and, hey! ... maybe you're the ... really strong type ... that can take all the pain ... ha, ha, ha![3], and ... 'I doubt it'[3], and, actually ... maybe you're the dumb type ... who doesn't even notice the pain because ...[3], and ... you've got to be sensitive, like[3], and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND, and a-ROUND ... / ... and I imagine you're rather dizzy but ...[3], and,,, are you, you, you ... sensitive ... like???[3], and ... 'Don't waste your time, Mikey'[3], and, but, but, BUT(!) ... I have so much time / and ... ... ... isn't that obvious?[3], and, anyway ... here my words[3], and who is that ... peering through your window?[3], and who is that ... asking questions about you ... wanting to know why you're alive?[3], and if you feel ill now ...[3], and who is that ... with no life ... so they want yours?[3], and I don't blame you[3], and who is that ... really?[3], and